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I make this my end.

Thu Mar 30, 2006, 3:25 AM
I loved Ted so very much..I should've tried harder though.
She no longer loves me. And this is my final farewell. No more temporary journals speaking of leaving, this is it. The end of my love towards anyone..the end of my sanity. I can can only pray to whatever existant god that death comes swiftly down upon me for my reason to live is drained.

I hope you have a good life Ted with Gravity1046 know that you've given the the truth. I can honestly say I know have what I need.

Directly after this posting the password is to be scrambled and my yahoo account deleted without knowledge of the new password. I'm serious when I say it is all over now.

Adjusting more to medicines. :)

Wed Mar 29, 2006, 4:46 PM
I think I'm finally over the worst of lingering effects from switching back to Lexapro from Celexa. :) I'm no longer feeling edgy paranoid or manic. I do have some advice for those who have bi-polar disorder, ADD, depression or anthing similiar. If at all possible do not let a physician put you on Celexa. Not only do the effects of taking Celexa cause extreme thoughts of suicide but I have read about the withdrawal effects of coming off of it, and in a few reported cases it has been so severe that it has caused persons to kill others.

This is a link to the effects of prescribed anti-psychotic medicines: [link]
As well as a good example why I believe no one should ever consider taking them, unless they're need is critical.

I do take these medicines but only because it is what my family and physician think is best for me, if I refused my psychiatrist would be insistant on having me commited. I'd rather not take any of these medicines, or at least try an herbal alternative but it is not my choice to at the time, rather people imposing what 'they' feel is best for me.

Several anti-psychotics have been known to confuse the thinking or to distort emotions even perhaps what is rational with some persons. I luckily am able to maintain decent thought rationality while on medicines, though emotions are a bit of a problem at times.

Of course a main focus of this journal is again to say I'm feeling much better like my good jovial and wacky good humored self. :D :) :P

I slept until around 4:30PM but my allergies are doing better. :) My family got some visine for my eyes..My cornea in my right eye has been itching and scratchy for a good while last night which is why I was on and off the comp routinely. I'm doing much better now with that though. :D My stupid acrylic throw is shedding like mad so naturally I'm unhappy with it..it's clinging to my clothing esp. black clothes and it's hard to wash off them..some lint has even made it in the washer..The acrylic fluff if really light and a damn pest during sleeping since it gets in my nostrils and I feel like I want to harf an acrylic lint ball upon waking up :XD: So yep. I'm about ready to sent that damn throw packing. :nod:

My family went to Owensboro while I slept at home and joined the Sam's club in which members can get huge dicounts esp. on bulk items.

[link] See if there's one in your area, or if you apply! This group is a direct provider for Wal-mart, and joining can make you applicable for huge discounts on virtually anything. :nod: :)

Sooo..I'm in a good mood and feeling well...what to do..?

*pounces and molests Mmy* :giggle: :XD: :fuzzydemon:



Artists to watch and praise:

:heart: :cuddle: A great artist and the very first of the JiMmy fans. She is who inspired my love for JiMmy and made me the obsessive Mmy fan girl I am today. :nod: :D She is my My Princess, Angel & Love. Everything in this world can't compare to the love I feel for my girl. She is my soulmate and my very meaning.

:dance: A very cool and great friend, with some wicked art! :D Also an Invader Zim fan! Go see her DA page!

8-) She's a very nice and talented young artist, with lots of great art!!
:D

:fuzzydemon: A very cool person with several awesome OCs as well as being a die-hard fan of Rob Zombie!! :w00t:


:nirvana: Another nice person, with some wicked Zim & Crypto art! Go see her gallery! :thumbsup:


:tux: A great friend with a kind personality, and lots of great artwork!


:batty: A really kind person, and a wonderful friend as well as a Sesshoumaru fan! :D

Groups I'm in:

:worship: As far as sexy comic guys JiMmy OWNS, cause Mmy is god! Gotta problem with that? :glomp: :love:

:floating:

:evillaugh: :cuddle:

:devilish: All Hail The Sexiest Bassist Ever!

A switch in hair color..?

Tue Mar 28, 2006, 7:30 PM
Okay here's the lowdown..I'm getting ready to dye my hair again..and I want to know what you the people think I would look best with..

1. Garnier Nutrisse Truffle- medium natural brown

or 2. pale creme blonde

Your opinions especially Ted's are greatly appreciated. :)


Artists to watch and praise:

:heart: :cuddle: A great artist and the very first of the JiMmy fans. She is who inspired my love for JiMmy and made me the obsessive Mmy fan girl I am today. :nod: :D She is my My Princess, Angel & Love. Everything in this world can't compare to the love I feel for my girl. She is my soulmate and my very meaning.

:dance: A very cool and great friend, with some wicked art! :D Also an Invader Zim fan! Go see her DA page!

8-) She's a very nice and talented young artist, with lots of great art!!
:D

:fuzzydemon: A very cool person with several awesome OCs as well as being a die-hard fan of Rob Zombie!! :w00t:


:nirvana: Another nice person, with some wicked Zim & Crypto art! Go see her gallery! :thumbsup:


:tux: A great friend with a kind personality, and lots of great artwork!


:batty: A really kind person, and a wonderful friend as well as a Sesshoumaru fan! :D

Groups I'm in:

:worship: As far as sexy comic guys JiMmy OWNS, cause Mmy is god! Gotta problem with that? :glomp: :love:

:floating:

:evillaugh: :cuddle:

:devilish: All Hail The Sexiest Bassist Ever!

Spring colds: Mother nature really loves me.

Tue Mar 28, 2006, 1:37 PM
This evening at 2:50PM I have awoken to a most nasty gift..I think it has part to do with all the damn pollen coming out of the woodwork with spring finally being here..

After climbing out of bed I nearly tripped over some jeans on the floor and cursed them before wandering off into the bathroom and applying a hot cloth to my face since my nose had those dried boogers in them and my eye lids were pretty crusted over..I think one of my farking corneas is swollen to add to the mix upon examining it really close in the mirror. Luckily I haven't began going into a sneezing fit yet..

I hope this isn't a bad allergy year for me..I haven't had a bad allergy attack since I think it was 2003..but who knows I might be over due one.. I just hope the damn thing doesn't try to spread into my chest area especially since that can cause pneumonia...right now I'm going to take some non drowsy sinus pills..yay!!

I ended up sleeping with the chow plush tucked under my arm that Teddy got me as always. :heart: :heart:

Evil stuff you'll enjoy!! :D

Mon Mar 27, 2006, 5:54 PM
[link]

I don't like the abortion T-shirts..but otherwise they've got some pretty wicked stuff. :D :P

I've been doing well, pretty calm and such. My mom is still pretty embittered about having diabetes..you can't even say harmless little jibes without her getting emotionally distressed so I stay away from her. :shrug:

I've been doing pretty well though..I'm working on a hilarious Easter pic involving Mmy.. :XD: !! most likely I'll be playing my sims game unless anyone needs anything or my beautiful shining angel Teddy D. would like to chat. :glomp: :cuddle: :)

I ended up watching Xiaolin Showdown and swooning over Jack Spicer again.. Just as a random pic..I may draw him with Mmy sometime. :drool:

I've been letting my Mmy obsessions run wild too..which I need to sketch out for Y!gallery.. :nod:

So I'm doing good and I love all of you!! Especially Teddy D. though.. :glomp: :fuzzydemon:

TV: Fosters Home for Imaginary Friends. :D

Artists to watch and praise:

:heart: :cuddle: A great artist and the very first of the JiMmy fans. She is who inspired my love for JiMmy and made me the obsessive Mmy fan girl I am today. :nod: :D She is my My Princess, Angel & Love. Everything in this world can't compare to the love I feel for my girl. She is my soulmate and my very meaning.

:dance: A very cool and great friend, with some wicked art! :D Also an Invader Zim fan! Go see her DA page!

8-) She's a very nice and talented young artist, with lots of great art!!
:D

:fuzzydemon: A very cool person with several awesome OCs as well as being a die-hard fan of Rob Zombie!! :w00t:


:nirvana: Another nice person, with some wicked Zim & Crypto art! Go see her gallery! :thumbsup:


:tux: A great friend with a kind personality, and lots of great artwork!


:batty: A really kind person, and a wonderful friend as well as a Sesshoumaru fan! :D

Groups I'm in:

:worship: As far as sexy comic guys JiMmy OWNS, cause Mmy is god! Gotta problem with that? :glomp: :love:

:floating:

:evillaugh: :cuddle:

:devilish: All Hail The Sexiest Bassist Ever!

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